i've lost touch with my inner blog.

what to do?
where to go?
i just need time for myself.

stay tuned for my photography,
i'm finding myself all over again.

peace on the street.

don't throw your life away.

you only have one chance.
so why "waste" it?



here's to all the loved ones i've ever lost.
[because it was always in such short notice.]
//miss you.

words of advice: appreciate all that you have.
you never know when it's all going to be gone.

peace on the street.

waiting for another self.

How many unrequited desires-canceled calls-broken falls-bathroom stalls... Must I trail before all this is more than lust for dust of dreams askew? How long before I leave? Run away after another shooting star...

peace on the street.

Hello Winter.

Hello break. 

Christmas is nearing, and i can't wait.
[this wasn't suppose to rhyme.]

Dear Santa, all i want for Christmas is:
a Lomography Lubitel 166+ Twin Lens Camera, and
the Return to Tiffany Heart toggle bracelet which matches my Tiffany's neclace.
Sincerely,
Kiwii

peace on the street. 

i self-medicate with drugs and alcohol.

To help treat my extreme social anxiety problem.

peace on the street. 

photographic memory.

I Wanted to freeze time. I wanted to savor the moment, to live in that moment for a week. But I couldn't stop it, only slow it. And before I knew it, you were gone. After the door closed I felt like the last person on Earth.
peace on the street.

quote of the week:

"You have to do stuff that average people don't understand because those are the only good things." 

-Andy Warhol 

It's completely and utterly true. You will never understand me, and i will never understand you. No one is "average," and if we were all the same nothing good would ever come about from our being. So here's to difference, confusion, complication, substance, beauty, and all that's in-between because without any of that, good would be nothing but a simple word. 

peace on the street. 

take five minutes.

stop. 

listen. 

feel. 

realize. 

life. 

peace on the street.

blogzzzz.

i blog!!

peace on the street.

winter break.

i am sooo fucking ready. 

watch out, here i come! 

peace on the street.

THE Kristina and Tuna BAND.

You better listen to me when i say listen to them.
They're music is of another style.
And her voice is amazing.
Definitely my new obsession.
It's a MUST listen to.

Soooo.. what are you still doing here!?
Go take a listen.. NOW:

www.myspace.com/kristinaantuna
peace on the street. 

life. love. love life.

i love my life.

peace on the street. 

i've got that feeling.

That suddenly you're going to turn out like all the rest.
I hope it isn't true.
It's all but practical to me.
peace on the street. 

it's cute.

the little things you do that make me smile. 

the simple things you say that make my heart skip a beat.

peace on the street. 

short and simple.

So i've noticed that i have been keeping my blogs short and simple lately. Would you like me to add a little spice to your life? Give you a little something extra to read for once? Tell you a story? Write you a book? I'm sad to announce i don't have the time for such dedication. Actually, that isn't it at all. It's difficult for me to explain myself, and in my case less is more. Ya digg?! 

I've been too preoccupied with life to write a novel. Maybe when i'm done we will see what i can heat up? But for now you are going to have to deal with my lack of communication, and try to understand me from a more simple (and maybe even more complicated) point of view. 

peace on the street.

tell us what it's like.

to live so much, but claim you hate your life.





i don't believe in your lies.
peace on the street. 

i want to live my life.

don't want to wast my time.



try not to distract me.
peace on the street.

amazing.

amazing night. 

amazing friends. 

amazing place.

amazing new people. 

amazing boy. 

amazing me. 

amazing life. 

it's all getting better.

peace on the street.

because i need you to know.

today.

i realize i show no emotion. 

know that i love you. 

know that i appreciate you.

know that i care for you.

i'm showing you how i feel by not showing you anything at all. 

you might fail to understand how it's possible. 

but i'm not asking you to understand.

i just need you to know. 

peace on the street.

sleepless nights

with cute boys. 

and it begins. 

oh c'mon just stay here tonight.

peace on the street.

completely out of the loop.

I don't know where to find myself these days. I'm constantly losing myself amongst 1000+ page books, school work, studying, and friends. I haven't given myself the time of day to stop and realize that i need to pay attention to me and my needs. That is until i became unbelievably sick on sunday. I actually went to the hospital. All of those who know me also know i DO NOT go to the hospital. For some reason i was scared, scared of the fact: Life. It doesn't last forever, and of all people i would have expected my self to know that. I've attended more funerals that i have weddings, and i know that is a terribly sad thing to say but it is also the truth. Where do i go from here? How do i change? I don't want to seem selfish, but i'd like to live for once. And by live i mean i'd like to do the things i want to do, when i want to do them. One simple choice can change your future forever, can change you for ever! With that said, everything can all be gone in a matter of seconds. There's a difference in doing things for others, and doing too much for others. Be a little selfish and do for yourself. 

peace on the street. 

wonderwall.

I'm sure you know that classic song by Oasis. Yeah, so i previously said i need saving. Is someone finally going to save me? I guess we will just have to wait and see, and don't worry i'll keep you posted. 

On a different note: Ima 'fuckin' Robot kicked ass last night at their secrete show in east LA!! I haven't had so much fun at a show in so long. It was definitely a night for the books.. or in this case for the blogs. You should most definitely be jealous that you weren't invited. Before you start hating me too much, I did have to wait in an endless amount of traffic just to get there. What's up with all these fires?! Don't tell me the world is coming to an end! Yeah, ok that's impossible.. or is it? 

peace on the street. 

today i am not myself.

i feel quite ashamed. 

where do i go from here? 

i need saving. 

peace on the street. 

i don't feel comfortable talking to you.

Did you ever get that feeling while talking to someone that you were saying too much? That the things which were falling from your lips were inappropriate, but only in the sense that the person you were sharing them with didn't actually need to know. 

peace on the street. 

living in the fast lane.

Or maybe i'm living in the slow lane? No no no, i'm most certainly living in the fast lane. Speeding, weaving through traffic, and being chased by the police. Surprised i'm not dead yet? Yeah, that makes two of us. Who's going to lay down the law when no one can even catch up to me?! I was considering doing it myself, but then i realized i actually like living in the fast lane. I'd much rather risk it by living, than be stuck with the same mundane schedule for the rest of my life. Wake up at 6am, get ready for school, go to school, come home, do homework, sleep. Throw work in there in a couple of years, and what kind of living would that be? ROBOT LIVIN' BABY! You got that right, robot livin'. I am no robot, i do not fall into conformity, but instead i stand on my own by being myself. You should try it sometime if you haven't already. I'm sure you'll enjoy it. Just throw some spontaneity into your life! Then enjoy it, embrace it, capture living for what it really is, and become a speed demon (and no i'm not talking about drugs) in this thing we call life. 

peace on the street. 

sexual.

One of my favorite words: sexual. It can be use in pretty much any situation. For example: "Hey! That shirt you got on is pretty sexual." "Oh why thank you, i'd have to say you're pretty sexual yourself." "Me sexual? No way! So what's your favorite color?" "Green is my favorite color.. because it's so sexual." There you go! A whole dialog, and sexual was use in every sentence! I say you pick this word up and use it in your everyday vocabulary. It's interesting and fun what you can come across when using this word.. not too mention it's quite "sexual" as well. So go have some fun, but remember to be safe. I don't want you to go out and get too sexual for your own good! Be safe. Be curious. Be sexual. Have fun. 

peace on the streets.

sharing the plaid while wearing the plaid!

It's official. I'm obsessed. With plaid that is. It's most certainly the new trend, and i might not be big on trends but i definitely can't get my hands off this one! Everyone needs to be in possession of at least one plaid item (preferably a shirt.) Shirts come in all sizes and in a range of different colors, so please go out and find the one that best fits you and your personality. In fact, I do believe you can tell a lot about someone by the type of plaid they're wearing, but i won't get into detail about that. So do us all a favor, go down to your local thrift store (a great place to get plaid incase you didn't know) and get your self a lovely plaid shirt. And gents i guarantee after you buy yourself a sexy plaid shirt (or something of the sort), you will be a hit with the ladies! What are you waiting for?! Go mad for plaid! 

peace on the street.

revelation or revolution? epiphany or intervention?

The rumors are true: i've quit drinking. It was a self choice (not an intervention as much as i like that show), i realized that it was beginning to take control of my life. Coming from a background of alcoholics, i knew there was a good chance that if i did not take control of this situation i would soon turn out to be like some of the rest of my family. There was no way that i was about to let that happen! So here i am taking control and nothing or no one will get in my way. I'm tired of hearing that i'm just lying, and that i can't do it. What great friends you are telling me i can't quit drinking. Oh will i prove you all wrong. You have all seen me at my best and at my worst, but i am finally ready to show you my best again. It's been about a month now since i've quit drinking, and let me tell you: it feels great! It also seems like i'm passing on this revelation and turning it into a revolution; power to those who choose to join me on the ride to sobriety!
peace on the street. 

definition:

Competition- com-pe-ti-tion |kämpəˈti sh ən| (noun) the activity or condition of competing.
^^that is a terrible definition mac-book dictionary^^

What is the point? Do you have nothing better to do with your lame excuse for a life but to make mine a living hell? In all honesty, you've picked the wrong person to fight with my dear. You're lucky i care a little bit more than i usually do. Truly, it needs to end. You're completely overrated, and too caught up with trying to impress that you've failed to notice no one actually cares. Let me take that last part back because it was a bit too harsh. So instead i'm going to rephrase myself: Stop. Take a look, and realize what you have become. You've lost yourself in a sea of unnecessary commodities, and you surround yourself with people who only care about "what's cool." Why would you want to be that kind of person? Someone who doesn't know who they are. I hope you're only trying to find the real you, but i somehow fail to believe that. WAKE UP!



/end rant.

now that it's off of my chest i think i can breath a little better now.
until next time..
peace on the street. 

book of the week:

He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth To Understanding Guys by: Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo

This is a witty book of dating Q&A. It has a sarcastic twist to completely truthful scenarios. From experience, these two "Sex and The City" writers collaborate together to give you both the male and female perspective of why 'he's just not that into you.' If you're boyfriend is making you blue, then i suggest you pick up this book because chances are He's Just Not That Into You. peace on the street. 

i'm feeling 'bloggy.'

As most of you don't know, i'm kiwii. 

This is my blog.

 

Which is soon going to be your daily, weekly, monthly, and even yearly?source of entertainment. Some of the information i post might seem irrelevant to you, but i promise to keep it interesting. Although quite frankly, aren't promises meant to be broken? I guess you will just have to stay tuned to find out.  

peace on the street.